• I wanna crawl in my hole and wilt away slowly
    these voices are so loud that started off lowly
    they tell me all my fears are coming true
    that I am hopeless and that i have no clue
    that all that I know is nothing but fake
    and all that I do is just make mistakes
    I doubt the ones who would stay real
    cause im too scared of what I would feel
    If I were to ever lose them forever
    sometimes I wish I was dead and never
    had to come to live this life of misery
    and crush the feelings of those closest to me
    my heart begins to break and it re-shatters
    cause I fear the loss of all that matters
    all my love is in one persons hands
    and its like my happiness is forever banned
    cause I cant let myself think the best
    cant take what I got and accept im blessed
    I gotta doubt her just the same
    yet im the only one who is to blame
    gotta run it straight into the ground
    in search of the right words but none are found
    I find beauty inside of all the pain
    but lately I just feel like I am only insane
    cant let anything that I been feeling go
    but try to stay calm and not let emotions show
    my beating heart feels like its gonna bleed
    from all that I hold inside this hollow version of me
    I've had about all that I am able to take
    my brain is telling me its finally time to break
    to go back to the way things were before
    but that will lead to nothing good just horror
    i'll lose what I do have to keep me here
    and do what a lot of normal people fear
    cut my throat and watch the blood flow
    end it all, you should all should just let go
    let me finally find a little bit of peace
    and be free from all of this damned disease
    free from all of this stress and worry
    free from the pain I inflict I gotta hurry
    cause I dont wanna hurt you anymore
    and it will just get worst then it was before
    I dont understand why i cant just believe
    Why i cant let my pain go and be free
    Can you show me a reason to stay
    Or should i just take this life away