• what did I do to deserve this
    did I do something bad
    was I mean
    or do you just hate me
    did you make a mistake
    to keep me
    you always say that I saved our lives
    being born
    that I saved us
    but do you think you act like that
    when your proud of me you boast
    but when your not
    you scare me
    you make me feel like I should die
    you make me feel like a burden
    on your life
    if I were to tell you this though
    you'd get mad
    and yell at me
    did you know that I was going to leave
    that there were plans for me to leave
    I wanted to leave so much
    but Spencer beat me to it
    Ron tells me that he wouldn't be able to handle
    it here if I wasn't
    I've wanted to tell you so many times
    my songs that you read
    they were real to me
    and you called me a fake
    told me I was acting depressed
    for attention
    that hurt
    why would you say that
    why your supposed to understand
    I should be able to tell you anything
    but I can't
    I can't tell you anything
    you make me feel like a stranger
    you feel like a stranger to me
    have you ever thought that
    maybe I don't talk to you
    because you make me feel nervous
    you make me feel like I don't matter
    why can't you just accept me for who I am
    not who you think I am...
    who do you want me to be
    I already act different for you
    never show you who I really am
    did you know that I'm gay
    that I'm in love with my best friend
    that I'm afraid of your husband
    that I'm afraid of you
    I never feel safe at home
    I never feel safe when your around
    I don't get how you can't see it
    I hide my true self from you
    because if I didn't you would just call me fake
    call me poser,
    again
    who do you want me to be
    how I used to be,
    optimistic,
    cute,
    happy?
    I'm sorry but I can't be
    because I don't like to pretend
    not anymore
    not now,
    not now that I have people who love me for me
    I used to pretend for you
    but not anymore
    so if you can't accept me
    then I'm leaving
    until you can accept me
    I won't come back