• well, there i sit

    I'm so tired, so full of s**t
    my eyes as red as the war in my head
    and my tears as black as the meds
    can't this stop beating me?
    a cry for this is eating me alive
    take a look out the window
    where there's a hole where I bit the glass
    I've imagined the faces that I loathe
    in this glistening mirror to the past

    my pure agony, reaching so high
    I think I'd like to die, good bye, good bye
    I think I'd like to see them dead
    and me too, the cause for their lone heads

    lips are curling into that sneer
    I hate it so much when i feel it near
    and as darkness falls into this day
    I shift and wonder if it has to be this way
    I am a monster
    I am a monster
    I am the monster

    kill me
    destroy me, please

    my pure agony, reaching so high
    I think I'd like to die, good bye, good bye
    I think I'd like to see them dead
    and me as well, the cause for their slayed heads

    daylight comes, I do not hide
    nor do i close off what's inside
    I've bent the rules as I did their bones
    you can't love me, I am deadly
    you know
    I am a monster
    I am a monster
    I am the monster
    kill me
    destroy me
    this is crazy, oh so mad
    so f***ing genius, I want it so bad
    I have no way of turning back everything around me is black
    it's a world of pain inside of me
    there are no words to define me

    and in the end, there I still sit

    I was so tired, still so full of s**t
    my eyes were as red as the war in my head
    and my tears stained as black as the meds.
    Don't Remember my ghost, or the feelings you dread.
    in the end, just like me, You will all end up dead.