Ignorance

• Artist: kuramas_favgurl
• Description: This is a poem that I wrote a while ago. It's basically the prologue to my book of poems.
• Date: 01/24/2009
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I’ve been hiding this for so long
No one can tell the difference
I’ve created the perfect barrier
And no one can get through
People have tried to know the real me
But always seem to fail
They always give up
Just as I’m about to give in
And this is why I’ve learned
Not to let them in

But now it seems that it must come to an end
My mask of happiness is crumbling before me
Soon there will be nothing left
I don’t know how much longer I can keep this up
Without someone realizing the true face that lies behind
I know they wouldn’t understand
Everything I’ve been through
As soon as they learn the true me
They’ll leave
They always do

Why can’t I ever rely on anything?
Why must I always be proved wrong?
Why must everyone believe this façade,
Without any doubts of what’s really going on?
I’ve done nothing to deserve this hell I’m living in
Nothing to deserve their constant wrongs
So why does everything in this world scream at me
“You belong”

I wonder what people would think if they saw the real me
The one who has all these dark thoughts
The one who often contemplates suicide and other ways out
But never has the guts to go through with it
Would they say that I need help?
Would they say it’s a natural thing to go through?
Or would they just turn away
As if I was never there to begin with?
On second thought I just don’t care

I don’t care if people find me weird for thinking what I do
I don’t care if people stay away from me
As if afraid I’ll turn on them at any moment
I don’t need them
I like it on my own
Or at least that’s what I tell them
While inside I’m breaking down

So now I watch as my world comes tumbling down
And watch the changes that I see taking place in my ‘friends’
They leave me here alone to fend for myself
And as I watch I fall to my knees and cry
I don’t want them to leave me
I don’t want to be alone
Don’t listen to what I say
Don’t leave me
Don’t…

And now their gone

Maybe what they say is true
Ignorance is bliss

Comments

[Shadeofknite]

Thats a deep poem in my opinion. It has the right mood throught the poem and the right fluency.

[da6thcocosmurfpuff]

wow that's really long is that a poetry because it look like a poetry! by:da6thcocosmurfpuff

[SilvertongueSagittarius]

I too have a book of poetry that Im working on. Anyway, I always strat reading poems with the intention of giving them a review but by the end, I want to tell the author to try therapy. Honestly, Im sympathetic to the fact that life is hard sometimes but why are all the poems on here soooooo depressing? Well, as for the poem, I loke the way it's written. You have a cool style that you applied nicely to this. I'll give it a 4. and please check out my entries if you get the chance