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The wind blows my hair across my face,
and freezes my dried tears,
my mind is made.
For you to save me, it seems too late,
You can't fool fate.
Not crying, only regretting one thing,
I can almost hear the angels sing to me,
and the cry of a servant of hell,
their voices calling me from afar,
But I don't belong to a heaven or hell,
forever a wounded soul,
doomed forever, to walk this world alone.
Not existing, not belonging,
branded for life,
This all seems so familiar somehow,
as if its all been done before...
Right before I jumped, I saw it all,
everything I've done, made,
all of my mistakes of this life,
and all of the ones before, I see it all...
I'm born again, but it's not me,
I see my self, my life, my heart,
lived out by one who is me,
but can't be...
My fate is sealed
I see my friends, my family,
and especially you
all from years ago.
My the times have changed since then,
as have we.
The thought of you brings back,
memories from afar,
and it hurts me more than anything,
has ever before.
All of the chances I've had
and never took,
the fact I've never had the courage
to tell you,
just how I feel.
God Dammit, why does it have to be this way
why can't things have just stayed the same,
and the times, they never changed?
Right after I jumped, I saw it all,
everything, I've done, made,
all of my mistakes of this life,
and all the ones before, i saw it all...
I feel my soul rip apart,
the voices call me from afar,
but these aren't the ones from before.
Part of me wants to go, part wants to stay,
and watch this life fall apart,
all over again.
I can feel it coming closer,
I feel sad, scared and alone,
all of my hope is gone,
in my final hours of this, this afterlife.
But I don't want to go, I want to stay here with you,
"but you can't fool fate", was the last thing I thought...
Right after I was born again, I never saw it all,
none of the things I've done, made,
or the mistakes I made and will make, of this life,
and all of the ones before. I never saw it all.
I had to change to changed fate,
Today, Yesterday and Tomorrow,
I had to,
and it was all for you...
Then I awoke, for the thousandth time,
I lived my life again,
for my first twelve years,
and then it changed.
I found the courage inside,
but it was too late,
everything had changed.
And now I'm back on the bridge,
that one faithful night,
pondering over life or death,
And I thought about my one regret,
is it all worth it, could it be done?
And then the cycle of started over,
for the thousand and oneth time
Right after I fooled fate, I never was
I never did those things, or made anything,
never committed any mistakes, of this life
or those before, I never was...
...and neither were you...
- Title: Fooling Fate
- Artist: Zen3p0
- Description: I wrote this a few nights back as a song. I decided it sounded better as a poem, so I touched it up a bit and entered it here. This is already one of my favorite song/poems I've written out of dozens. And, yes, I do know it's depressing, but what would expect from a song about suicide, love that can never be and repeating one's life after death.
- Date: 12/21/2008
- Tags: fooling fate death love suicide
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Comments (1 Comments)
- Libreth - 12/21/2008
- its good a little strange but good. Its still a little unclear though
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