• Head spinning, thoughts swirling
    no outlet only inputs
    the voices enter and rationality leaves
    the DIEs the I HATE YOUS swarming
    around like maggots no where to go
    nowhere to run just me, a blade and my magnifying pain
    this is my state of mind its just on hurt one cut and
    yet why are there so many, so deep, why am I smiling?
    this is not funny I’m crying
    why do you hug me I’m worthless I cant even be dependable
    your my only joy and now you say that your not leaving me even though I’m out of bounce
    your lying aren’t you trying to be a saint to get to
    heaven by helping the demons that bite at your ankles
    well back to the blade another cut another scar pretends to heal
    another fake smile, I’m sorry and I love you
    enters my brain
    if you love me why did you leave me then
    why did you leave me with the pain oh well
    so long