• Everyone laughs at you. Everyone sneers at you. How do you bear the pain of that without going mad? People make "Innocent" jokes about you. Your friends don't think the jokes are actually that mean. You try to block out everything. You know what real pain feels like. Everything is falling apart. You feel as if no one cares. No one is trying to help you. Words slab at you like knives. You feel horrible everytime someone makes a remark about you. You don't know why this is happening to you of all people. You feel alone even thought you are constantly told that you're not. You try to bring yourself to cut yourself to show to everyone, but you lack courage. You pretend to go home and cry but no tears will come because you have already wasted all of them. You feel hopeless. You're not clinically depressed but you feel as if you are. Finally, you turn to the only person who can help you. Yourself.

    Now, as people sneer loudly at you, you turn to them and say cruel things back. You hurt people's emotion unintentionally. When people make rude remarks, you say 'thanks for the compliment.' You hide everything behind a face that only shows cruelty. You make fun of people who make fun of you. You backstab and blackmail to make sure they don't mess with you. You've become a monster.

    But that was the only way of trying to save yourself was it? No one was there when you were weak. No one tried to help you. Or at least, it seemed like that to you. You built barriers around you. You've become a monster just to protect your feelings inside. You're as horrible as those bullies that make fun of you. More people gossip and spread rumors about you now since you have become a monster. You feel as if you're better protected now, now that you have all your barriers. But you're not...you're not...you've just made things worse...