• Every Monday I would sit there staring at the glass window, wondering when I would be able to see him or what was going to happen this time. Maybe tears would roll down my eyes into a puddle, or my heart would light up my whole body like a light bulb. Time wiggled by at a slow pace and every second I would look at my watch, watching the red had tic to every angle. It made me nervous but anxious at the same time. I was waiting for the moment when a smile would creep to each corner of my mouth, rising my lips in upward motion, opening my mouth wide enough so my gap, that is shared between my two upper front teeth, would show. My eyes wondered around the room at every other person waiting, wanting to feel the same.
    The steel tanned door opened and everything in the room became unnoticeable as he came. He floated through the room as if to be an angel, confidence filled his face as every woman stared in despair, the other men hated him as they stared from a far walking behind him whispering negative notations because inside they all wanted what he had. He was tall and handsome and always filled any room with love. It was him and I that would be joined together for a very short time but it seemed like forever. My heart would jump and twist and turn. We were inseparable as we both felt the same love for one another. The only things holding us back from being fully happy was steel and the law. He filled my life with things I never felt before and I did the same to him. As we talked and laughed time flew by, our visit came to a end and the room drizzled with cold air. The cold air swayed side to side hitting every corner of my body. I felt the air possess my body trapping it self inside, entering my heart. My heart started to sting and naturally slowed down freezing into a ice cube. My mouth wouldn’t open and couldn’t find a comfortable way to say goodbye. My mind refused but I knew I had to let go. It was moments like these that you learn to cherish because you never know when it’s the last moment. My mouth finally unsealed and let the goodbye’s flow along. Time ticked hurrying me and this moment to end but I never knew it was the last.
    Next weeks Monday creped on it’s tippy toes around the corner. I waited for this moment again as I traveled to the same spot. I seen the same glass window and I stared wondering, waiting for the moment when a smile would creep to each corner of my mouth, rising my lips upward. Moments later, my heart was joined by a sharp knife forcing it’s way through my once cheerful spirit, knocking it to the rusty floor. I heard a man’s voice spraying towards my direction but I couldn’t make the words out. It was like my mind locked and ears closed. I didn’t want to believe and for a moment thought it wasn’t true but by the way he snickered and smirked I knew it was. “ He was sent to Texas” the fat police man’s words echoed over and over in my mind. The world vanished and I sat there abandoned in my own sorrows wanting to scream. My face turned blue and rain drops fell from my eyes finding it’s way to the floor. There I stood, lonely once again. All my happiness was washed away and the person I counted on and trusted the most disappeared from my life. No more visits, no more smiles, no more love. I was a child abandoned from her father. I wished I could just hear his grunt voice again as I use to sink into my chair wishing the day would never be over.
    I learned no one cares. No matter what memories are taken away or who impacts your life, no one will ever care because it’s not their problem. No one cares how much you cry or how much sleep you loose or if something will effect your life. I’ve learned to imagine Monday visits and our father-daughter talks but these moments you learn to cherish especially when no one cares.