• Everytime I look into Tanner's hazel eyes, I see Conner's gorgeous brown eyes. Everytime Tanner smiles at me I don't see Tanner's pearly whites, I see Connor's perfect canines, Every time I slide my fingers through Tanner scragly brown hair I feel Connor's soft silky, but messy hair, every time I touch Tanner's rough strong finger tips I feel Conner's soft delicate protective finger tips. Every time Tanner and I run I hear Connor's calm angleic laughter in the wind instead of Tanner's calm but rough laughter.
    Everytime Tanner holds me I feel Conner's protective arms around me instead on Tanner's strong arms ment to protect me from harm. Every time I look into the mirrow or in the water with Tanner I see Conner standing next to me, with a his hands on my shoulders and his chin resting on his hands, breathing on my neck, I move my hands where his are but they aren't there.
    I turn my neck I no longer see his lovley face, I no longer feel his breath, I turn back around and he's back, just like before. When that happens Tanner just drifts into the shadows. Every day I wish he was still here so does he, he obviously regrets doing what he did, I see it in his eyes, they're sad and red. He's been crying.
    I see him In my dreams, at times I wake up crying or screaming, other times I see him in the dark, he holds out his hands.
    I reach, but he turns to smoke. I start to sob, I hear his faint soft crying in the air. I run outside and scream 'Come back Conner! Why'd you leave me? Conner!!!' I light the front yard on fire, in the flames I see him and me dancing. The way it still should be.....