The Freak

• Artist: dragon_princess_ruler
• Description: one time i went through depression in the 8th grade cuz everyone was bullying me and at sometimes i felt really bad about myself
• Date: 09/01/2008
• Tags: freak monster hurt depression

I am nothing but a freak.
Nothing special and spends all days in the corner.
From the moment I enter that hellish place I was imediantly tortured.
My grandmother and mother told me that I was special and that I was pretty.
I knew that they were lying.
No one wouldn't even look at me, not even the people who wanted to help me.
Rumors erupted saying that I was a snitch.
But I was only trying to get help.
But deep down it made me weak in both body and soul.
For years I wanted to cry but never got the chance to shed a single tear without being teased.
As I pass the people who thought I was a ghost they glare over me with hate.
I have horrible visions of knives, rocks, and a red sea.
I felt scared and tried to hold back.
I realize then that I wasn't only a freak; I was a monster.
I shall burn in Hell for the things I cause and no one would forgive me.
There's no light at the end of the tunnel but a deep dark pit.
Mother's advice was to keep smiling.
But i felt no emotion behind my smile. No happiness, no excitment; nothing.
I only knew anger, fear, and sadness.
What does that make me?
I try so hard to have friends but my last one betrayed me and stole something from me.
I don't know what to make of my new friend in High School but she's an old friend and I guess I could trust her. Could I?
I try so hard to impress people but everything goes all wrong.
My family say that I'm not a freak nor a monster.
I knew in their eyes that they were lying.
I cause such misery in our lives.
I try to feel like other people.
To Love, to play, to at least talk to someone but none of that comes true.
I would never be loved by anyother human being.
My parents provide me with the sancturary I need but no one else would ever love me or at least gaze upon me.
Why am I hated by others?
I'm nothing; I'm just a ugly monsterous Freak.

Comments

[Black Bird killed Kaia]

this writing is amazingly realistic to my life. I have shared it with a close friend and I hope she shares it with others.

[distribution]

For being able to share something like this, you truly are special. 5/5

[Lilith Celestine17]

I know how you feel. I went through the same thing that you did. In the 8th and freshman year of highschool, I was bullied because of my eyes. The reason why is because my eyes change color and sometimes they are two different colors at the same time, like one eye is a light yellow hazel, and the other eye is a brownish green color. I was made fun of because of that. But I was proud of that, and people don't make fun of my eyes anymore. They think my eyes are pretty. Don't worry, I'm sure everyo

[Rockin_Robin_4eva]

its great to share her feelings instead of bottling it up cuz if u bottle up ur feelings it can lead to bad things this is probably like a big step for u keep expressing ur feelings plus it mite lead to guud things

[icefox5]

laugh; laughter is the best medicine...even when there's nothing to laugh at..when ur life is cruel and there's no hope, keep laughing.....

[witchygirl61]

I know wut u mean I went trough the same thing in 8th grade 2 it was crazy...... nice

[elizarave]

it is the truth that people in school are almost unbearable to be around and i'm glad that you could get all this pent up emotion down on paper instead of taking other routes and i do know exactly how you feel and i still to this day go through it, however i guess i'd have to say your not a freak if people could see the way you really are i think they'd like you thats all i'll say other then good job!