• I sat, and watched

    As the others went outside,

    Racing to see who was the fastest.

    They were smiling,

    Giggling like best friends should.

    I don't know why,

    But I hated them for that.

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    I sat in the back of the classroom

    On the first day of school,

    In the shadows.

    The teacher was taking roll.

    She called my name.

    I answered.

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    I sat on the rail,

    And watched people walk by.

    I watched them with no expression.

    I had long forgotten how to express emotion.

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    I hated them all.

    Every one of them.

    Who knew the breath of feelings.

    I wanted them all to die.

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    It was the first day of school again.

    The day that most people dreaded.

    For me,

    It was life.

    Nothing more than just a place to go.

    But then came that day....

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    I had never thought

    About how I looked

    'It is a silly thing

    To think about such trivial thoughts,'

    Is what I always told myself.

    Until he came and said,

    'You're pretty,

    I like you.'

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    I just looked at him,

    With a blank expression,

    And said,

    'Good luck with that.'

    And left.

    But he just grinned,

    And replied,

    'Oh you'll see...'

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    The next day I saw him

    Flirting with girls that were nothing like me.

    Prettier.

    Smarter.

    Who knew feelings.

    I then believed,

    It was all a lie.

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    When I turned

    And walked away,

    I felt something inside me

    I have never encountered.

    Something at the pit of my stomach.

    It made me feel...

    Sad.

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    As I stepped outside,

    I felt something in my eyes.

    I slowly lifted my hand to my face.

    It came out wet.

    I then realized,

    I was crying.