• as the dream begins there is nothing i am not ...i don't exsist then i hear a voice HIS voice calling to me "you have to come back you can't die please charam " i realize it's only a memory
    but his voice is still there i can still hear it he's singing and the song is so sad that it hurts the thought of him being that sad pulls me into exsistance everything is cold and dark but i must get to whoever is singing i must get to him i have to make him happy i can hear the tears in his voice i have to go to him i have to wipe the tears from his face this is all i can think of is making his tears stop getting to him but is it really him? i can see a light it's so bright i run to it soon becomes blinding but i can't stand this darkness so i close my eyes and run threw the blinding light as quickly as i can it's warm then i brake threw it i'm on the other side walking his voice it's ...goneit's winter the ground is covered in snow i'm a bit chilly it's night and the sky is covered by thick clouds for no reason i keep walking forward until i can faintly hear his voice the sky begins to clear i can see stars i've been walking for hours it seems then the moon comes into the sky it's the biggest moon i've ever seen and the most beautiful it illuminates someone who is far off in the distance sitting beneath a sakura tree IT'S HIM i start to run it's so cold i've been running so long but i can see him now he's perfect his eyes are so beautiful i don't know what to call the color they are it's like pure moonlight his skin is so pale he's perfection i could never be good enough for him never i start to cry silently praying he hasn't noticed me i whisper "i'm sorry i will always love you but i'll never be good enough for you at least not in this form "
    i turn around and run away as fast as i can but.... my legs fall out form under me and i fall into the snow my body is so much warmer then the snow that i am soon soaked in melted snow lyeing their crying shivering unable to get back up i close my eyes and start to fall asleep my tears do not cease i hear the snow crunching something warm lifts me from the snow and pulls me close i can't even muster the sranghth to open my tear filled eyes something warm and wet hits my lips and slowly creaps into my mouth it's a tear "i'm sorry i'm not perfect enough for you" this is all i can think to say he sets me under the sakura tree and sits next to me as i sleep i canot remebwer anything of the dream past this point