• I walked onto the familiar field...the breeze blew through the trees. Anger flashed as I walked, and walked, a familiar voice echoed behind me.
    "hm?" I turned around.
    "duuuude! I was calling you..What’s --" He stopped mid-sentences.
    "sorry..I didn't hear.." I looked down.
    "What's wrong?" His voice was worried.
    "Its...nothing..." I Just shook my head "What are YOU doing here, anyways?"
    "I come here to think...what are YOU doing here?" He flashed a smile.
    “Same. Just thinking.” I laughed.
    I layed down on the ground and watched the clouds go by, he joined me…We talked…and talked…the sky seemed to get dark fast. I shivered, and he held me near. The tears seemed to stop, and my frown smiled. I started to feel better I didn’t want to leave. forever I thought in my head…
    forever the wind whispered.
    I leaned my head against his chest…his heart beat steady and strong…his lips kissed the top of my head. We were one…molded perfectly…forever the wind whispered again.
    The sun shined bright…and a star dimly glowed by it.
    I fluttered in and out of sleep…trying to listen to the angel’s voice right next to me…

    It was already dark…Me and Him held each other near, laying out on the middle of the field, watching the star shine, and the moon glitter beautifully…I layed over his chest, listening to his steady breathing, and his strong beating heart…his finger tips ran up and down my spine…his song still hummed in my ear.
    A car screeched in the parking lot. I jumped and the angel and me sat up.
    “Maybe I should take you home…come on”
    He helped me up, his eyes were worried and his perfect lips creased into a tight line…we walked to the parking lot, I was half-hidden behind him. A car, dark and running, shone its headlights towards the field. A dark shadow stood by the car.
    “Hurry up! GO! “ The shadow yelled, “Leave! You Son of a-“
    He pulled me into his car, and we were off. The shadowy figure still stood in the parking lot…as he urged the car to go farther…I didn’t ask about the man…if he was okay…and what’s going on…
    The car finally slowed, as I got closer to home, our hands shaped into one in between us. The engine cut off.
    “Let me take you to the door?”
    “Is that a question?” I smiled.
    “Haha!” He was already outside of the car, to open my door. He helped me put as I stumble out…his hands held mine. I love you I thought.
    “Hmmmm…” we were at the door.
    “What” I asked.
    “Haha…uhhh” he smiled.
    “Hm?” I asked…wondering now.
    I waited for a moment.
    “Ehh…it nothing.” He laughed.
    “Oh…okay...”I sighed.
    He seemed to feel my hurt, and he reacted.
    “Hold still.”
    “Ohhka-“
    He kissed me. The blood rushed up to my cheeks, my breathing started to cut short…
    He pulled away, a slight snicker in his smile. And I tapped/slapped him on the cheek, in a playful way. wink
    “Night” I blushed.
    “Night” He hugged me…and I watched him walk back to his car. The engine revved and he was off.
    My parents didn’t notice my absence…I walked to my room, speechless from the…kiss…I found myself giggling when I thought of his name, and sighing when I think of his smile. I slept…with a horrible dream playing in my head.
    I woke up scared and shocked, tears formed in my eyes. I tried to remember the nightmare…nothing except the chills down my spine…I tried to forget about it, but it never really left. I found myself sitting up in bed for 20 minutes. I was running late for school, I quickly dressed and ran out the door. I had to walk to school, in the rain.
    He was leaning against his car; his hair wet. HE was looking down, playin with his keys.
    “…Hey!” I blushed.
    “Looks like your gonna be late, need a ride? “he winked.
    “Haha…please!” I giggled.
    He opened the door for me…and we drove off. It was raining hard was we drove. We were just a couple lights from the school now, it seemed to rain harder…it was to hard to just see out the window…we sat there laughing and talking, what seemed like forever.
    The light finally turned green. Everything seemed to go into slow motion, me and him were laughing…our hands curved in between us…his smile made my heart race…he turned his head suddenly to the right…a car was coming towards us…skidding fast against the wet pavement…it came straight towards us…the sound off metal screeched in my ears…pain filled my body, and everything went black…I screamed for him and I couldn’t feel him near…he was gone…I was gone…the dark thick water rushed up over my head…I was loosing it—
    Murmurs filled my head…and an annoying beeping sound beat with my heart. Chords tugged at my arms. The beeping sound seemed to pick up with my anxiety. I tried to open my eyes the light was bright, the voices seemed to get louder, more worried.
    “Its okay! Its okay!” the voices reassured.
    “Where am I?!” I screamed.
    “Shhhhh…shhhh! Breathe! Its okay, you’re in the hospital…you got into a car accident.”
    “Wait…what?!” A hand pushed me back down. I hadn’t realized I was sitting up. The beeping sound was fast…but slowing…I was IN the hospital, I thought. Im okay im okay…im a live. Then his name flashed through my head…my heart raced again.
    “Hun, are you okay?” A nurse asked.
    “The guy I was with, in the car, the driver…where is he? Is he okay…I want to see him—“
    “Shhhh…it’s okay…” It quiet for a moment “umm the doctor will give you some pain pills…you need your rest…”
    My heart flustered inside of me, I screamed in my head. Where is he?!
    I fell into a deep sleep, I knew I wouldn’t wake, I don’t want to ever wake up anyways…I want to sleep forever… forever the wind reminded me…My heart fluttered, forever? And I was gone…
    My eyes had a hard time adjusting to the bright room, my mother sat at the edge of my bed, a women I couldn’t recognize stood by the door, holding a tissue between her hands. Her eyes were red, from tears. Her eyes, oh how beautiful, they remind me of someone…I couldn’t remember who, but they were familiar….The lady’s hair was soft and dark brown, her lips were full and pink, her eyes were what I noticed the most though. Beautiful and blue…like crystals.
    “Hun, Hun, hi…How are you? ” My mom asked.
    “Uhhh…what?” I still stared at the women by the door; she stared at me now, shocked… why?
    “Are you okay?” My mom asked.
    “Yeah, im…fine…just a little disoriented, you know?” I laughed.
    The women by the door smiled, but missed the humor. She walked to stand next to my mother. Compared to my mother she was very pale…but she looked very much as healthy as my mother. She was petite, and slender. She whispered into my mothers ear.
    tell her? is all I heard from the women. My mother nodded, and the women sat where my mother was sitting. Her eyes were beautiful! I laughed at myself, I was staring into eyes of a stranger…eyes that were so beautiful. BUT I was staring in a non homo way… I giggled. The women tilted her head. I just shook my head and said nothing. She smiled a smile that made my heart race, a smile that hurt me, that I missed…I felt insignificant, and empty.
    “I’m sure you don’t know me…but the boy that was with you in the…car accident, that is my son.” Her voice was sad, heartbroken. “My son, —“
    The women cried, her crystal blue eyes seemed to overflow with tears, and pain… this is his mother…the pain started to hit me…
    “Ohhh, nice to meet you –“ I stopped short; I looked into her eyes again, and saw the boy I love, the boy that she loved, dead. Cold and dead. I saw the pain that she felt, the images came out bright and clear, the accident.
    The women tried to talk again…to explain why she was here…I shook my head, I understood. I closed my eyes, trying to fight the tears, and the images away.
    “Hun, are you okay?” my mother cried…I had my arms around my torso…holding myself as if I was about to break…
    “…”
    I couldn’t speak, I didn’t know what to do…The accident replayed in my head…over and over again. Every pain, every last rain drop against his bloodstained face, every pain on my body didn’t mean a thing to me, only him. Every noise, scream, heart beat. Everything hit me hard and fast…the car…the image starts all over again. What pain, ow…No. Was all I could say to myself…
    “Im sorry…” I whispered. I tried to reach for the lady, but my arms dropped when the lady got up…
    “It is all you fault!!! “ The lady screamed as her tears fell.
    “Wait, what?” I was shocked, hit in the gut.
    The scene seemed to change; I was in a different room. That annoying beeping sound was slow; slower than mine…he seemed to not be breathing at all…a noise like mosquitoes in your ears came from the machine next to the boy…he was gone. The lady, the same lady in my room threw herself across him, holding him…they looked the same. Their eyes matched, their lips were shaped the same, even their hair. His body was covered in blood, gashes, and bruises. He looked strangely familiar…a flash of heat hit me…blush, and anger…pain…a lot of pain…It was HIM, dying right before my eyes.
    The scene played through my head again…it hurt a lot more than before. I crouched on to the ground, holding myself, as If I was ready to break. The tears fell, the pain hurt…I lay there, alone…


    “Hey…” an angel said.
    I jumped. It was just a dream…a nightmare. I tried to open my eyes…the sun burned them.
    “Sleepy Head” he laughed. “You were talking in your sleep…are you okay?”
    “Oh, sorry. As long as you’re here, im fine.” I laughed.
    I was sprawled out on the ground; my head lay across his chest. I looked at the angel, his tender blue eyes like crystals stared back at me. forever I thought.
    “Forever” he said.
    The words rang like bells…
    As the sun set, 3 stars, right next to each other twinkled bright. 3 words…3 syllables…3 stars whispering I love you. <3