• CHAPTER 47 - A LECTURE AND A LONELY NIGHT

    Like it was said earlier, some people overreact to some things...but some of them...they aren't so ridiculous after all.

    .:{{Kai's Perspective}}:.

    s**t.

    "Kai!!!" Miku came storming into the kitchen where I was generous enough to prepare dinner.

    I turned around to face Miku and she was steaming from the ears and breathing fire. She clenched her fists and breathed deeply. Obviously somebody told her what I just did yesterday. Miku gripped her hair and screamed.

    "Kai, you retard!!!" tears were brimming her eyes already, "How could you do that??!!"

    I only ignored her and went back to my cooking. I didn't want to converse what she wanted to. She continued to vociferate profanity at me and I only ignored her more. I had already heard enough crap about what I did, but it was Matsuda's orders.

    Miku got fed up with my abscence of opinion and back-sassing. She grabbed a skillet from the counter and out of angry reflexes, whacked me in the back of the head with it. It knocked my head forward and stung a little, but I was still more than conscious. I turned around and I didn't glare or give off any guise of expression except for apathy.

    "You stupid blood-sucker!! How could you dump Arisa off at the orphanage??!!" her face was turning red and the tears were coming out, "I thought you loved her!"

    "I do," I mumbled, still preparing dinner after dealing with the fact that she hit me with a skillet.

    "Whatever! If you loved her, you wouldn't have done that!" she instantly dropped the skillet and backed up against the wall and slid down it, holding onto her stomach, "Oh, oh, oh..."

    "Miku?" I rushed to her and kneeled next to her, "What's wrong?"

    "Go away," she hissed, "I'm fine."

    "What's wrong, Miku?" I demanded, "Are you in labor?"

    She shook her head, "No, I'm not. I'm just over working myself."

    Matsuda rushed in, "What's wrong?"

    "She's okay," I sighed, "She just overworked herself from yelling at me and hitting me upside the head with a skillet."

    Matsuda looked up at me and sighed, "Why don't you go out and work on your car? I'll finish dinner."

    I didn't agree verbally with what he said, but I left anyways. I didn't want Miku to strain herself anymore. It's a miracle enough that she's been able to go this long without giving birth already or the baby even ripping its way through her. It's strenuous carrying a half Werewolf half human baby, I would imagine. And Matsuda only told me to work on my car because I shot the brakes when I skidded to a halt just yesterday, and I need to replace the steering wheel. I'm sure he'd have done the same thing if he had to get rid of Orihime. Of course, if I told him that, he'd probably kick me out of the house.

    I still couldn't bear what I had done. And it was hard to believe it was just yesterday. It was just yesterday when that stray Vampire tried to force himself on Arisa, when I picked her up, when I left her. My chest was still aching but it was queer because my heart wasn't beating, so it shouldn't be feeling this way. Of course, the pain could all be in my head, seeing as Arisa is the one who makes me feel most human...but at the same time, makes me feel most Vampire too.

    ~*~*~*~*~*~

    The blow to my head from Miku was surprisingly starting to throb a little bit. She really hit me hard. That's why you don't want to piss of a teenage girl who's pregnant with a Werewolf's baby who's due in less than a month. I wouldn't blame her for being that angry, though. I'm about fifty times angrier at myself than she is at me.

    I reached beside me for my wrench and I finally reached it after Kira helped push it towards me. He's being the biggest help he could be right now; he's being the jack for the car because I broke the real jack out of frustration. He was only crouched down, holding the car up on his shoulders and acting as though Momo were resting on his shoulders. I ignored his musing stares and his sympathetic apologies, seeing as he was still feeling sorry for me since yesterday. He had no idea how much I was really suffering.

    "Do you want me to take over?" he offered, "You seem too distracted."

    "I'm fine," I hissed. He was only offering because I accidentally popped a tire while reaching sharpy for the screwdriver.

    I wheeled myself out of under the car and sat up, rubbing off some oil on my cheek that had leaked out. My car was really in shitty condition. I sure screwed it up last night. I stood up and wiped off the remainder of the oil with a washcloth.

    "Fine, take over," I hissed again, "I need some thinking space."

    Before Kira could agree, I had already sprinted out of the garage and deep into the fields of Hokkaido once again, tangible to destroy anything from self-loathing once more.

    ~*~*~*~*~*~

    .:{{Arisa's Perspective}}:.

    "Arisa, get down from there," Chi demanded with a shaky voice.

    I ignored her and continued to reminisce out the window. I had perched myself on the windowsill, the very windowsill Kai was sitting on when he had taken me. I was wishing more than anything that he would hop back onto the windowsill and take me away once more. I had been slipping in and out of shock since last night, since he dropped me here. I was pretty sure I was more in shock now, seeing as I wore no expression on my face and acted as though I didn't care or didn't notice. Chi never asked me, but I knew she wanted to know what had happened. She was probably thinking Kai raped me or something. Nope, but a different Vampire tried to yesterday.

    "Arisa," Chi hissed, "Get down."

    The breeze coming from the open window was cold, but at least it was clearing up my mind. I had already cried myself out and I was too booked up on memories and images. I was replaying the message I left for Matsuda over and over again in my head. I was questioning whether or not Kai had listened to it. If he did, what was he thinking while listening? Is he missing me as much as I'm missing him? Is he suffering as much as I?

    I hopped off of the window and shut it after me. I walked past Chi in almost a ghostly fashion, ignoring her lecturing glare that burned through me. I was in no mood for a lecture. I sat in my bed and played around with my empty ring finger. It felt wrong to not be wearing the ring anymore. It meant everything, now that I thought about it. It was more than unhealthy to be dwelling in the past, but it just happened so of course that's all I'm going to do.

    I had gotten no sleep last night, not because I was curled up with a hurting chest, but because the workers and the owner of the orphanage were interrogating me all last night. They were asking the same things Chi was. I responded the same way; first by saying Kai didn't do anything, and then silence. I didn't want to answer anything. I hated how they assumed Kai tortured me and raped me and did whatever. He didn't. I was his fiancée for crying out loud!

    "Arisa, can you please not ignore me?" Chi pleaded apologetically, "I'm sorry if I'm being snippy with you, but I'm paranoid."

    "You shouldn't be," I mumbled, "He won't be coming back."

    "You don't know that for sure," Chi held her breath.

    Hearing that surprisingly gave me a spark of hope. That spark extinguished as soon as I calculated the possibilities that he actually would come back. I still didn't know exactly why he left me here. He knew I hated this place so he wouldn't do it on purpose. He couldn't do it on purpose. Was it part of his contract? To try to make me hate him so it would be easier for him to kill me? I held my hand against my heart and took deep breaths, feeling fear.

    "I'm going to take a shower," I sighed, pulling my pajamas out of the suitcase that the workers had brought up to my room against my orders.

    Chi and I were still sharing the same room, but some of the kids had traded rooms since I had left. There were only four of us in the bedroom now, seeing as most of the little kids were afraid some creepy guy would jump in through the window and kidnap them too. Yeah, if their blood also gave immortality.

    "Be careful," Chi whispered as I shut the door to our bedroom.

    I drug myself into the bathroom and shut and locked the door behind me prior to turning on the vent. I started the water on lukewarm and would have to keep it on lukewarm or cold so the others could get a decent shower as well. It's so stupid, I'm nearly eighteen years old. I shouldn't be living here still. I don't think I should have been adopted right away either; I just wanted to be alone now. I wanted to wander through the world alone. It was hard to admit, seeing as I once wanted to rule the world with Kai once before...many eons ago.

    I stripped myself down and as I was brushing my hair while looking in the mirror, I could notice some red marks on my chest and neck area. I leaned closer and moved my hair to one side and then the other to observe. Scars. Scars from when Kai and Kira first bit me, from when that Werewolf tried to infect me. They were healed, but you could still see them. They were my only wounds, not including the Werewolf bite on my ankle, that hadn't completely healed. They were bad enough to scar. Great, if everybody saw these scars, they'll lock me up in an asylum for telling them I was attacked by a Werewolf and enjoyed being bitten by the occasional Vampire fiancée of mine. They would probably cut Kai's head off too. One because of the scars and two because of the fact that he's, well, a Vampire.

    I could tell Chi had been somewhat traumatized by my kidnapping. She was a little thinner and her face had lost some color as well as her hair. Her eyes weren't shining so much either and she had gnawed off the ends of her fingernails. She was really worried about me, then. But, of course, nobody at school will be any different, seeing as I've still been going to school. They might give me a bunch of sick crap once they realize Kai's absence, but I'll worry about that when it happens.

    I knew starting off in this new life would be far from easy. I wasn't prepared, I was still trying to absorb the fact completely that Kai was gone. That I'd never see him or the others again. I've lost so much already and now I've lost what I had just gained.

    I'm sure that if I ever cross paths with Kai again, I'll be able to ask him why he did what he did.